Diaries of an Emetophobe

Thank you for saying that you are here for me! It really does mean a lot to me!:D

Sun, 08 Jul 2012 17:28:00 -0500

no problem!

I know *exactly* what it is like, to be consumed by the anxiety that comes with emetophobia. I have battled this phobia for YEARS.

If you ever need someone to talk to, I am always here.

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Sat, 07 Jul 2012 21:07:49 -0500

I wish i knew someone

Sat, 07 Jul 2012 21:02:35 -0500

emetoph0bic:

Some one that i could see every day

Text all day

talk to..

someone that knows what its like to be scared to eat because your assumung youre going to puke once your done

Someone that knows the feeling of a panic attack caused by overthinking of eating

Someone who can help me get over this fear, and of course id help in return.

hey, if you every need someone to talk to online, I am usually on AIM quite a lot. I am totally free to talk to about this sort of stuff.

You can reach me at: NetDiverMotoko on AIM. :)

uuugh

Sat, 07 Jul 2012 20:51:00 -0500

Mother of God, Milk of Magnesia is some of the most awful stuff on this Earth.

but let me tell you, that stuff gets the job done.

also, PROTIP: if you are naturally skinny/underweight like me, DO NOT take the full dosage. Cut the dosage in half. You do not want to make the same mistake that I did.

the worst mother of all milk; milk of magnesia!

Sat, 07 Jul 2012 01:19:19 -0500

royaljester:

TMI TIME! “ヽ(´▽｀)ノ”

Fri, 06 Jul 2012 02:47:47 -0500

So apparently Miralax is super popular in the Eating Disorder community.

I was searching the tag, trying to find user opinions for this product, and all I am finding is eating disorder related stuff.

In order to save you all from reading too much about me, I have had IBS since I was a baby. My mom is a Registered Nurse and keeps telling me to take Miralax. I have tried it before, and had a weird dry heaving spell on one of the days I was taking it, and automatically assumed that the two were somehow related.

I may try the product again, and see how things go. Maybe I will cut the dosage in half.

I would welcome other input on this product as well. Please, by all means feel free to share your opinions.

What I will be eating for the next few days because...

Fri, 15 Jun 2012 01:11:52 -0500

emetoph0bic:

… because if i dont eat much, i wont feel full, therefore, i will not freak out and think im going to puke.

6/15/2012 - 6/17/2012

Breakfast:

8 ounces of Apple juice

A toasted slice of bread with butter

ORRR one Scrambled egg

Lunch:

One cup of grapes

One cup of watermelon

16 ounces of water

Dinner:

One cup of carrots

ORRR One cup cooked rice

WATER and ginger ale

WATER

WATER!

WATER!!

WATER!!!

You probably do not want to hear this, but I need to share it with you anyways, since I used to be exactly where you are at right now (in regards to this phobia.)

If you do not eat *enough* during the day, you can actually cause yourself to feel super sick, and even dry heave. I get severe low-blood sugar moments if I do not eat properly, or miss a meal, and believe me…you do *not* want to ever go through something like that. One of the top symptoms is nausea.

Ah im so happy i found your blog, i dont know anyone else who is emetaphobic. its so hard, im so sorry you have it. i'd like to know though, those pills that you have.. do they work ? cause this stupid phobia is starting to take over my life, i hate it :(

Fri, 15 Jun 2012 01:06:59 -0500

oh for crying out loud, I had an amazing response all typed up and ready to send, and then my internet crapped out and I lost it all. *sobs*

Ok, I will try to retype this and make it just as good as the first try.

I have been on Paxil since the 5th grade, and it was prescribed to me for my panic attacks and anxiety. When I started taking it, it took 2-3 weeks for any noticeable changes to be seen. When it did start to work, my parents and my family were very excited and often commented on how much more “outgoing” I had become. I would still experience mild anxiety, but it was much much less severe then before.

My doctor says though, that I have been on it so long that I really do not need it anymore. He seems to believe that my brain is producing the right amount of chemicals again and wants me to try to ween off of it to see how I do.

Paxil is one hell of a drug, and the side effects when starting it are awful, and the withdrawal symptoms are just as awful if you do not ween off of it properly.

I would suggest speaking with your family doctor about your concerns and how you would like to try a medication to help you out with your anxiety and phobia. There are a lot of other medications out there that are not as brutal as Paxil, but do just as good of a job of treating anxiety/panic attacks/etc.

I have come a long way over the years and have made tremendous progress with this phobia. I owe a lot of it to constantly practicing meditation techniques, and using certain “mind tricks” to calm myself down.

My mom bought me this book several years ago, and it is honestly one of the best books on the subject of anxiety and phobias that I have ever read. I highly suggest you check it out as well (along with everyone else who may be reading this message.)

http://www.amazon.com/Anxiety-Phobia-Workbook-Edmund-Bourne/dp/1572248912/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1339739728&sr=1-1

Medication is really only a “bandaid” for phobias. To *truly* overcome them, you need to also address to problem straight on, and work on ways to overcome it, and to lessen your anxiety.

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Mon, 04 Jun 2012 21:08:57 -0500

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Mon, 04 Jun 2012 16:29:19 -0500

anxietycat:

http://medicinmannen.tumblr.com/

suprbabe: How to hate yourself in Japanese

Sat, 02 Jun 2012 18:31:34 -0500

suprbabe:

How to hate yourself in Japanese

Best of luck with your paxil journey. A fellow emetophobe here. Been on generic paxil since fifth grade, now twenty years old. Currently taking 40mg/day. Recently tired to wean down and come off the medication and it didnt end well. Be careful. They don't like to tell you, but paxil is a hell of a drug to quit.

Thu, 31 May 2012 23:59:00 -0500

oh I totally know how hard it can be.

Last year I began to ween off of it, and it took several MONTHS to ween myself from 30mg down to just 10mg every other day. But then I had a *severe* panic attack that fall due to college and boyfriend related stress and my mother made me up my dose again. In retrospect, I don’t think that the panic attack was from me weening off of the drug, because I had been weening off of it for the previous 8 months VERY slowly and without any issues.

I have done a lot of reading up on the drug itself and withdrawal symptoms, etc. Many people say that they will experience what *feels* like panic attacks, but in reality it is just their bodies adjusting to living without the drug. My own doctor has told me that since I have been taking it for so many years, that my brain chemicals have more than likely re-stabilized themselves and this is what prompted him to suggest that I ween off of it.

I definitely feel those horrible withdrawal symptoms though, if I miss a day taking it. When I was 14yrs old, I missed something like 3 or 4 days in a row of taking it, and I thought I was going to die. It was the most horrible feeling ever.

The withdrawal symptoms that I *personally* experienced, are those weird “tracers”. Like, if I were to be looking at something, then change my gaze to something else, my eyes do not move quickly enough and the image “drags”. I also get those weird “electrical shock” feelings, but just in my head/neck region. I have never felt overly nauseous, but just kinda sorta. Honestly, it felt very much like when I had a sinus infection and a fever. Everything seemed to be confined to my head and upper body.

lol, so I got my anxiety medicine refilled and they now only...

Wed, 30 May 2012 22:41:00 -0500

lol, so I got my anxiety medicine refilled and they now only offer 90 day supplies. I also am at a 15mg dosage, so this means I have to split the 30mg pills in half. This means I will now have 6 months worth of anxiety medicine.

If anyone is curious, I take 15mg of generic Paxil every day. I am hoping to eventually completely get off of it in the future (hopefully the near future.)

having one of those 'I'm starving but I'm afraid to eat' days

Sun, 27 May 2012 03:55:56 -0500

Emetophobe Things: Here’s the thing. Our thoughts are so powerful that we can trick...

Sun, 27 May 2012 03:48:48 -0500

Emetophobe Things: Here’s the thing. Our thoughts are so powerful that we can trick...:

emeto-things:

Here’s the thing. Our thoughts are so powerful that we can trick ourselves into feeling sick. We hear a voice saying, “This is it. It’s going to happen. This is real. It’s going to happen and there’s nothing you can do to stop it.” We hear this voice and we panic. We go outside for fresh air and…

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Sat, 26 May 2012 13:42:17 -0500

bunnyjunk: Tips and Tricks for dealing with Anxiety.

Tue, 08 May 2012 02:44:50 -0500

bunnyjunk: Tips and Tricks for dealing with Anxiety.:

anxietycat:

~~33rd.~~

Holla, everyone!

A few weeks ago I asked you guys how you cope with your anxiety, and got some lovely suggestions that I would like to share with you! If you have another method that you find helpful and that isn’t listed below- reblog and add yours so that…

I love/hate finding other emetophobes. I'm so sorry you have to go through this ridiculousness, but I thought I was the only one for so long that it's just nice to know there are others out there.

Thu, 03 May 2012 02:02:41 -0500

*hugs*

I wish I had known other emetophobes when I was younger. It would have been nice to talk to someone back then, or just joke about stupid stuff that only emetophobes would think is funny.

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Mon, 30 Apr 2012 02:01:09 -0500

I was going through the emetophobe tag and saw your post about emetophobes being misdiagnosed as anorexic, which happens to me ALL THE TIME! Not necessarily by doctors more by other people. I've had different people in my grade and even teachers ask me if I were anorexic.

Sun, 29 Apr 2012 21:33:07 -0500

uuugh, in the 5th grade, I had this horrendous teacher.

When I went to the hospital for several days, she told all of the other students to “be nice” to me when I got back and to “be my friend”. She then went on to tell them that I basically had an eating disorder and was crazy. Of course a bunch of 5th graders are going to use this as fuel for bullying. When I got back, I knew something was up, and one of my few friends filled me in on what had happened while I was gone.

Once my parents got wind of what had happened, they were *pissed* and had it out with the teacher and principal. My parents then allowed me to get the hell out of that private school and finally attend a normal public school.